2/29 The MD appointment, taxes

The challenge of this time is big. We went to see the surgeon that Dr H recommended. Yes, Luke has a hernia. He's not the only guy in the world who has this issue, but he's my guy. And that's what attachment does to you. I know that I'm filling our space with negative vibs. They are also going to do a colonoscopy. This scares me. Why lie. I know that Luke has had some trouble with his stomach. And the mind tends to lead you down the garden path. If you let it. Anyway the colon MD is across the hall from the hernia guy, and we'll see him next tuesday.

They'll do both surgeries on the same day. The day to be determined.

I do feel a trust for Dr A (hernia guy). He's a D.O. like Dr H. He does a process that will not require much medication and Luke can come home the same day. He told us a story that I loved to hear. Two friends had to have the same hernia surgery. The patient that Dr A did was on his feet right away. He went to visit his friend in the hospital. He had to show his scar so that his friend would believe he had surgery.

So I can decide. Do I want to whine and feel sick until the surgery is over. OR do I want to work on my inner healer? Do I want to imagine that my inner Goddess of Healing can heal Luke and me and all those who we love and all those who enter our circle and need prayer. Do I want to act like I believe that prayer heals. I say I believe this. Do I?

Actually, I do feel something going on within? Something that I haven't experienced before. I'm turning more of my attention to this place. Teach me easy lessons Lord. But let me learn.

Then we did our taxes. And then we watched our fav shows on t.v.