4/11/10 The mind is like a tornado. How to stop it?

Today Luke played a rehearsal and concert that has been a bone of contention with us. I don't want my mind to play in the negative realms. Also, I don't want to siphon positive energy from Luke. But my mind is hard to control.

We shouldn't talk about any issues right now. You know how it is. If you can't talk about an elephant in the room, you might meditate on it. Yes. If you think of anything on a regular basis, it's meditation.

I have added practices to my journey. I've memorized prayers that are beautiful and I'm repeating those prayers twice or more a day. This moves the negative thoughts out of their position of control

I'm very tired. Instead of feeling stress and worry--we're looking at surgery and news from the mole surgery--I am working to express the healing Goddess. I visualize this healing energy as surrounding me in ripples. Blessing ALL who come in contact with me.

Here's another example that it's beginning to work. A man came into NM to buy a pain killing ointment for his dog, who just had surgery. He talked to me and in the end didn't want to leave the store. He was worried about his dog and he wanted to revel in the divine healing mother (not me as I know myself and as my dear one's know me). The customers seemed (for the most part) to feel --well--happy in the company of this energy.

I do love Matt like a son. When he told me how sick he's been, I felt faint. But I fought back. I didn't fight as hard as I would have liked to. Still I could step back and pray that he'd be all right. I pray for Matt every night and hope that those special prayers were with him during his healing crises.

At dinner with Em and Bobby, Evan came. He opened up to me and we talked from the heart. Maybe for the first time. So even here, this healing energy is changing things and bringing more light.

Now I need to work on being in the healing energy with Luke tonight. NOT decending into the hell of negativity.

Another experience. As we were driving into our garage (after dinner), our neighbor's baby was at the door. His parents opened the door so we could visit with him. And thier dog came right over. Usually she heads right for Luke. Tonight, she came to me. And the baby and the new adorable little white puppy (so soft and cute.)